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[Atsbaby]

Hi friends,

It's been awhile, but man life has taken a crazy direction. After I posted last time, I decided to go to the football game with Clark and it went well. We talked that night and seemed to clear a little more air. Clark broke his boundary rule and has everyday

I cleaned out my d9 folder the other night and she had drawings of Freddy Kruger, Jason, Chucky and Slenderman....not very happy she even knows who these characters are! Then Monday, during fall break, I was at work and my mom texted me that d9 asked how to spell suicide...WTF? Pretty sure it's mostly curiosity, but omg, not what a mom wants to hear.

So that night Clark and I sit down and talk with her about the drawings and the looking up suicide. I want to seek counseling for her, but Clark isn't there yet (surprise!). As we were talking, more Clark than me, he mentioned faults and thinking that she was doing which are like him! "I have repressed my childhood memories because it was traumatic for me. I don't like it, but I can't remember anything from before my parents divorced. I'll make a deal with you, I will get counseling too."

What? Did I just hear you correctly Clark? Granted this happened Monday and no movement on the counseling, but at least there is now awareness and some clarity speaking.

We still have a long way to go, but things are starting to connect within Clark. I've let my expectations get the best of me a few times, and I need to practice this some more...he's still not there yet. Heck, he still has the D petition on hold, not even ready to drop it yet, even though we are making plans for the future.

I'll update more of my week later, but all in all still headed in the right direction.