Depressed WAW, digging in, learning about myself

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I agree with all of that. Actually most people that have given me the "at least she's young" speech are well-wishing outsiders. I know they're just trying to be positive, but jeez, that makes it even worse. "Yay, at least my D will have no memory of her family being intact. It's like a fairy tale!"

I am not giving up either. And for me right now, that is distancing myself from WAW. If I fall out of love with her, it's definitely over. And her attitude is driving me in that direction. So I'll be seeking space. I have no interest in the friend zone, or whatever twilight zone she has me in now (friendly texting one day, angry outbursts the next, sneaking around my back at MY house while she thinks I'm not there just so she doesn't have to see or talk to me).