Alright...Pinkisters (yeah...a made up name for my groupie)...
A lot has happened lately:
1) Hot GF is no more 2) Ms. Wonka responded this morning 3) I'm one hot mess in the head and heart
Life marches forward.
Ok, ok...I'll go with the response first for you starry-eyed folks.
Hi Wonka,
I can see that 10 years has spanned already and that we are growing and evolving in our ways. It certainly will be some issues that we don't see eye to eye. There are times if opportunity presents itself that we continue to address it. Like now.
I agree that the understanding and patience is important in the process. As you mentioned, you felt that my communication was not what you expected. How you described is not how I felt I presented myself. But I can see how it came out that way. I took the time to clarify issues on what is important to me. Thank you for hearing me out.
You keep referring in emails and the last one I'm not the same as you remembered. I would like to think that we are more wiser and mature..sure of what we want in life and change of self is often needed to live.
It looks like civil movement is gaining speed in recognizing GLBT marriage. I think I saw XXXXX (State) off the hook yet? I think I saw that there are 30 states that allow GLBT marriage.
I hope you find this season well and safe from the flu and bug.
Ms. Wonka
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You need to know that I fought off a VERY, VERY strong urge to call Ms. Wonka after getting home from work tonight because I had this overwhelming yearning to connect with and talk with her as my best friend. My emotions were roiling like a strong ocean storm all day today/tonight. Massive confusion reigned and my head space was firing off in a million directions.
Hot XGF is just that because I am struggling in my heart and head. This was some time after the anniversary of my beloved late father's death. Emotions about my hometown. Reflecting on the next steps in my life and where I want to take it.
If I am being totally and completely honest here, recent communications with Ms. Wonka has a hand in this process as well. Sigh. Who said life can be simple??!
And for the first time in a long while. Fear has reared its ugly head. Fear of ...feeling exposed and vulnerable. Yeach!
