I'm having a hard day today lots of "what if" thoughts going through my mind. Worried about how our counseling session will go next Thursday. We haven't talked about any relationship things since last session. I won't initiate it....but is driving me nuts . I feel we are "stable" .......couple weeks ago the wife wanted to separate. .... I've given her space and only cried once last weekend. She definitely seems less social w me the past several days. Typically conversation (as short as it is) is initiated by me. The silence doesn't feel right. I try to be positive but most stories I read (successful or not) start like mine but get so much worse. Ours has been going on since june 1 (4 months). I did EVERY THING wrong in the beginning. ...I feel I have made progress on me, but feel it's not good enough sometimes because I still feel depressed more than happy.
me-42 w-33 d-3 together-6 m-4yr 6/1/14-w check out 6/15/14-EA? 8/1/14-mc 9/1/14-IDLY-started DBing 9/15/14-w suggest separation 10/17/14 wife is done 12/13/2014 - wife move out me file 1/1/15
lots of "what if" thoughts going through my mind. Worried about how our counseling session will go next Thursday. We haven't talked about any relationship things since last session. I won't initiate it....but is driving me nuts . I feel we are "stable" .......couple weeks ago the wife wanted to separate. .... I've given her space and only cried once last weekend. She definitely seems less social w me the past several days. Typically conversation (as short as it is) is initiated by me. The silence doesn't feel right. I try to be positive but most stories I read (successful or not) start like mine but get so much worse. Ours has been going on since june 1 (4 months). I did EVERY THING wrong in the beginning. ...I feel I have made progress on me, but feel it's not good enough sometimes because I still feel depressed more than happy.
