Very little interaction . But i will say before the incident she wasnt cooking for me or doing my laundry , Nada . But now she is . She made dinner for me and the boys last night and even kept mine separate because i like it different . And she did my laundry .But oddly she was making my tea in the morning all along but now she doesnt . She has me very puzzled at this point . I did tell her i had wished the incident had not have happend , and I left it at that . Anyway I know shes hurting through this whole dam mess and i really feel for her and i just want to hug her and tell her its gonna be alright . But shes not in her right mind anymore . She has told me she regrets ever starting the affair and that she never dreamed it would get so out of control . I dont think most people do think about the ripple effect that comes when an affair is discovered . I know she wants to stop this but she believes she cant . It truly is like a drug addiction. I need to somehow control myself until she gets through withdrawl of in the event they get back together let the A die a natural death . But I dont know if I can last that long . My emotions are wound tight as a guitar string . Its only been 10 months and i feel used , disrespected , tortured , abused in so many ways i cant count . How can I go any futher . I made an appointment to see an IC for Tues.
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
