still waiting

[Ahoy]

I like the idea of visualizing strangers as folks from this community! Thanks for that, Maybell. You and shodan make good points -- I think next time before I jump at an invitation from him, I should ask myself if I am ready for that. I do need time and space to heal, and accepting these offers, even though they do show him that we have fun together, sometimes does set me back. At other times, though, I feel good about moving on without him afterwards (because he is such a narcissist, and who needs that).

I'm glad I accepted the dinner that he invited me to as a thank-you, even though it was probably a pretext for him to ask me a favor and alleviate his guilt. But there was no reason for me to join him at the outdoor festival as his social buffer. In hindsight, I should have declined.

It's so hard to know what the right thing to do is. But I have to keep a positive attitude I think, even when turning down his invitations. I think I'll just say I have other plans. But it's hard to walk away from a possibly opportunity to connect (not that he's invited me anywhere this week).