still waiting

[Ahoy]

Had lunch with a friend who works with my H. She said he mentioned that he enjoys spending time with me as a family. I don't know what else he said because I didn't want to put friend in an awkward position and ask. I figured she would volunteer information that was relevant. She is friends with both of us, but doesn't agree with the way he is going about things.

I'm having a lot of anxiety about the health insurance sign up, even though I know that it will be fine -- it's just another hurdle and will help me get my independence.

Having trouble not fixating -- waking up and thinking about him and the whole situation. I know there's no point, but my brain really wants to "fix" this problem. I'm visualizing a stop sign, following all the advice I've been given. I can't will myself to detach though. I think I can try, but realistically I think detachment comes with time as much as with practice.