Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

I had an interesting quick talk with H tonight. In a couple of weeks, we have an annual camping trip coming up. It's a huge Halloween trip where the entire campground decorates the sites and dresses up. Big trick or treat with candy and adult beverages. It's just super fun and we have been going for several years. Anyway, I mentioned a few weeks ago because S and I are going no matter what. I already know I can man the RV so it's on. But I asked H if he planned on going or if I should invite someone. We go Friday thru Sunday. H said he had planned on coming up on Saturday. Well, knowing how flaky these MLC'ers are, I decided to invite a friend and her S who is a buddy of my S. She called tonight to confirm and we are super excited.

Anyway, I guess H was curious about who I was talking to. He actually asked. I told him who it was and that they were going to come with us the camping weekend. H was surprised, but seemed happy for us because we will have a blast. So a little later he was asking some questions, about other friends that go and are they going. I answered that yes, the regular gang will be there. I am super excited, but at the same time, I am sad that we won't be there as a family. So I told H to make sure he explains to S that he won't be going with us, that it isn't for me to do. H said he would. Then, after that internal debate, I told H that I know we will have fun, but that I am sad and disappointed that we will not be going together as a family. He says he figures I am uncomfortable having him around. WHAT??? I told him, please don't say that. That you know this isn't about me and that isn't true. He was quiet. So I said, hey, I am not trying to fight. I just want you to know that I am sad about what has happened here. H said he knows. Then he said he didn't mean to fight with the texts the other day. H said he knows we both got defensive and he didn't mean for it to go the way it did. (WOW!). FTR, H never apologizes so that was big for him. I told him I know, we both get defensive and that I didn't mean for it to turn that way either.

Wow, I had my adult H back for a quick chat. It was nice. When he comes to our KOA camp out, I will make sure to let him know he is welcome and keep it light. Oh, BTW, H complained about how the handyman fixed a light switch. Lol!