Newcomer living in Hell

[bravo61]

Shake,
yeah i'd love to hear what the DB coach says. i would do that but i'm broke.
South,
just like i tell my friends back home, use me as an example of what NOT to do in a relationship.
Card,
thanks for lookin out. i'll definitely check those threads out if i can find them.

my main concern is how quickly the process is going in my sitch. i mean, this is at the 4 month mark and papers have already been served. definitely believe her friends are a driving force in this matter. not like that really matters though, this is the situation i'm in. no denying it, it's now my reality. and it sux.

she did call me today to let me know that soccer practice was canceled tonight. its funny cause she had already sent me the email yesterday to let me know it was cancelled. i have both kids and she was gonna miss cause she's working overnight. she made a point to let me know she was sick today. told her i was sorry and if i can help her let me know (180 for me-but didn't plead with her to let me be there for her). she's getting an addition to her tatoo today. the kids told me that they ask me questions about R with W because they know i will tell the truth (and i only say great things bout the wife but do admit to being confused) and won't get mad for them to ask. bought a baseball glove to play catch w/S. i'm against him playing b-ball but she ok'd it. i don't like baseball and didn't really play so worried about not being able to help him as much as i'd like and of course travel costs and injury possibility. but didn't blow up about it. just tried to agree with it and own it. took him out today after school and threw the ball. so while he and i are bonding, she's trumpeting her "freedom" with a tatoo with God knows who (sigh). does anyone else think that the push for this is happening really quickly? i will say that my trust in her is really low right now but there is no OM. don't worry i won't give up. imy word is my bond and i told her it was forever. one of my friends likes to say "if Bravo says he's gonna catch a bear, i'm gonna go ahead and build a cage". i'm so stubborn that i woke up one day and decided that i was gonna quit using smokeless tobacco (19 yr habit). haven't touched it since (over a yr). that's what's frustrating about all this, she knows my word is good and yet...