Well, it's been 7 weeks since he wrote, which makes it about 10 weeks since he's heard from me... so that's about two months of NC, around about.
In terms of the relationship, NC has done nada one way or the other. I haven't heard from him and don't expect to. During the early months after BD, he made it a point to explain that he stopped saying "I love you" because it wasn't fair and he made it a point to explain that he takes his time to write back to me because he doesn't want to give me the wrong impression. So I imagine this is similar. Even if he IS feeling anything because of this NC period, he's probably not going to reach out to me, because that would give me the wrong impression.
So as it stands, I imagine I will have to contact him if I ever want to hear from him again.
In terms of doing NC, it hasn't been hard at all. It's not like it's a huge shift, anyway. It's more just me taking control, rather than not.
I've been GAL-ing along the same lines as before. I had a fun day out with a friend a few weeks ago (you may remember I only know one person in this city). I told her about the end of my R that same day, but stressed that I didn't want to talk about it. I've told my entire extended family too now, and other friends by email. (I know it seems strange that I've only just told everyone, but that was because of a separate issue that I can't get into here). So, now everyone knows.
I don't know how I feel at this point about anything. I do still love him very much, but it's hard to say I'm in love when I've really spend no time with him in a VERY long time.. you could almost say I've dropped the rope in a sense, since there is no contact at all. I am basically taking it all day by day. I can't do anything about our R at this point.. so it will have to come from him if it is ever going to change. So when I start to think about it, I just tell myself I need to just keep doing what I'm doing and if that day comes, it comes.
