In limbo, need to figure out next steps (thread #5

[shodan]

Yeah, she clearly is waffling. she has made a ton of changes to be in Boston more. She is doing a day trip to NYC next week while I am traveling. she could see him that day clearly. But that will be three weeks since she was last in NYC.

So I know she is waffling and needs some time to either (1) get the guts to end the A or (2) feel comfortable enough in my changes or comfortable enough to commit to working on our M. Based on her text with the OM, she clearly has said something to him about slowing down and allowing her to figure out what she wants. Based on his response on that text, he must have said something like "I cannot wait around forever for you while you make up your mind." Somewhat ironic since that is what I have said.

If she goes on her feelings, she will choose the OM b/c her feelings for me are buried so deep inside. But if I give her time, all I do is sign myself up for more limbo, which s**ks. If she chooses me, it will be because she is choosing her feelings for our family, not me. Those feelings will take a lot of time to come back.

I know my moving towards a D is putting pressure on her, but I really don't see another option. I cannot sit back and know that my W is having an A with the OM. If that is what she wants, she can have it. I want no part of an open M.

Please note: I am still being SUPER pleasant towards her and around her. I am being Mr PMA.