You've mentioned MC a couple of times so I think that's a clear indication. You've also said you're slipping back into old patterns occasionally.

Your W has brought up some behaviors or yours that are troubling for her. Would it be 180 for you to take this bull by the horns and work on you?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss