I'm not going to be a hypocrite - we never did much to observe anniversaries and I can't pretend that I am really "missing" any thing special - but it is an opportunity to reflect. When my husband left, he said about 5 times that he had "ruined everything". At first I felt that he had as well, as this as touched every aspect of my life. But I find that there is a lot to be grateful for.
I have two beautiful daughters that I adore.
I have a loving family that lives close and would do anything to help me and my children. I know I am fortunate with this.
When I married my husband I gained an extended family as well. So far, they have contines to love and support me - I know everyone is not as lucky.
I'm an introvert and have always had a smaller group of close friends, but they have all rallied round to keep an eye on me, even high school friends who live half a world a way,
God has blessed me with many talents and abilities. I am able to keep food on the table and a roof over my girls heads. If I need to make more to keep our family home, I know I can do that.
I have built a life that includes a precious family, a beautiful home in a community that I love and meaningful work.
I am grateful for my husband too. I won't allow the events of the past few months to taint the wonderful memories of preceeding years. I am better for him being in my life. I don't know if we will find a way to repair what was broken and make something new, but if I had to do it all over again - I would still make those vows.
Finally- I am grateful to have this place to work through some of these issues and be a part of this community. I've nver participated on an internet forum in my life. Who knew?
