You said that you read at least part of DR, correct? If you did, then you would understand what I'm referring to. I'll make this very simple for you. Right now you can't control your W's feelings or actions. You can only correct and control your actions. That is why the number one thing you do in DB is take your mind off of your spouse's actions and just concentrate on your actions.
I don't know if I can be much clearer unless you've read the books. But if you'd prefer to get help from someone else, then good luck.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.