Okay I'm having a major roller coaster swing right now. Last night I was tempted to flirt with a dance instructor and move on. And now I just drove home, knowing my house is empty and my best friend has not been my best friend for 4 months now, and I am just crushed again. I want to call and her tell her how much I miss her. Not going to do it, but it is so tempting. I had two powerful dreams about her last night. The first, we were reconciling joyfully. It sucked to wake up from that. The second was a nightmare, her with another man and moving on officially. I was glad it was only a dream, but I think the two of those dreams left me in shambles today. This is episode # 5,000 of "I can't believe this is real. We were better than ever a year ago. Why me?"
Gah! I was doing so well for 2-3 weeks. I guess this is just another dip and I'll get through it. Hopefully quicker than the last time it happened, when it lasted for a week
Last edited by Card29; 10/07/1411:57 PM.
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
