Whew... you guys are so right. What would I do without you? Seriously.
I have really got to get down to business with this whole thing. I have got to figure out what it is that bothers me. I need to let this whole thing go. I can feel the tension mounting as due date draws near. Who know when it really is. But I sense it with my kids too.
OK, what I know: xh is a big jerk. I don't want any of that mess.
What I am feeling in regards to being upset:
That xh claims he was so unhappy. That xh never discussed this with me. That hww thinks she is saving him from me and this terrible m. That all of a sudden this young girl (who was 5 when xh and I got together) is the right one from him. OK, I know that this may not be true, but the fact that they think it is really gets to me. Why?
She is garbage. How can you trust anyone who would do this to kids. She calls herself a mother. Please.
I guess I really have to face the fact that he feel happy. I guess.
I DONT want any of that mess. I don't want to be brought down to this. I am better. I deserved better.
There is no excuse for how he treated me and what he did to me and the kids. None. How they can justify their actions is beyond me. They are really living in fairy tale land.
Maybe thinking of them not being happy is just to make things easier for me. Maybe they are. Either way, I've got to get over it.
I have to reread everyone's posts from the last two days. They are quite helpful.
