when I detach, she definitely notices and tries to bring me back in. But she does not react enough to actually either admit the A or stop it. so my only option at this point is to D. If this gets the reaction that I want, great. It probably won't. She is so wrapped up in so much hurt from things in the past that she cannot see clearly. She just thinks we have no chance, we are so different, that I never wanted to be with her, etc.
What perplexes me is how she will not admit to the A with all of the glaring evidence. Text messages in which she says "I love you"to him, pictures of him on her phone, pictures of the two of them, tons of lies and secrets, etc.
Ironically, when I left today, we hugged (probably the first time in four months) and she squeezed me so hard.
Starsky, thanks for your support. you are a good man for doing this. Don't forget that.
Me: 40, W: 40 M: 15, T: 18 D - 10, S - 7 D announcement 6/7/2014 A discovered 7/20/2014 (but denied by W) Still living together and sharing same bed