I'm sorry you're having anxiety....completely understandable. I hope you have been monitoring your heart rate etc. Don't let your health suffer.
Ok, reality check because I know you and what you're made of.
Xh poor choices were never about you, nor were they because of you. They were because of his inability to cope. His experiences and the movies he played in his head of his own past. Nothing you could have done to stop this. Hww hair and eye color.... Irrelevant. It's not about her either. Bandaid. A cheap, generic brand kinda plastic that doesn't even stick right bandaid. Don't give her second thought. Like, none. It's not how you think. I'm so certain.
How they act in public is also not within your control. But, you can control how you let it in. Don't give them more of you, Mighty.
You are SO valuable. I see this through the words on this board. I know you're beautiful inside, outside, upside-down. No one can take that away. Not if you don't give it.
I know the thought is scary, of ever seeing her. I had that same fear. I forced myself to face it. I found a business card of hers while going through her wallet the day I found her stuff in my house. She had the same coloring as me. Creepy.
I also accidentally saw them together getting a movie from redbox... They didn't see me. It hurt like he!!. I'm not gonna lie to ya. But after I thought about it, it was so pathetic, I couldn't be intimidated. Not in the least.
What you imagine of the them is not the reality. It's not like the movies or tv. This is not a picturesque event, no matter how hard they may try to make it appear. It's autopilot of what they think they need to do.
It's not love. It's not real. It's two broken people sleepwalking through the motions, mindlessly.
Ok, too much on them. But this stuff helped me before.... Human behavior 101. Babies are fun for 5 minutes. And I love babies,I had 4 of my own. But they are a lot of work, xh and hww have no foundation to handle the stress. Their house of cards will topple. It's a matter of time. It just is. I wish I could place a large bet on this and retire.
Ok. I'll get off that topic. Wear the white hat, Might. Be the glorious you. Get out the way for that mess, cuz it's gonna fall. Let it. And then smile knowing you didn't have to do anything but be you.
