Ugh, 5 K training is not going. I never solved some of my post-pregnancy physical issues that interfere with running (don't mean to be TMI). But, the good news is that I am starting PT again next week. Going to also try to pick up a yoga class once a week, and maybe add in some treadmill walking or biking or weight training.
To be honest, I've struggled for the past year with my sleep habits. I fall asleep on the couch every night, and wake up somewhere between midnight and 1, and then get into bed. My alarm goes off at 5:30. My D often wakes up once/night. Sometimes I do, too. That part of my life is a bit of a mess, and I'm surprised at how well I'm functioning considering I *never* get a good full night's rest.
I am exhausted. I know I need to solve this, as sleep is the key to so many other parts of my healing.
I have such a block about it though.
Even after all.this time, I hate getting into bed. I got new sheets that I love, I have a candle that smells great. And I still hate getting into bed.
Clearly I've still got a lot of work to do.
I would also love some pointers on how to get more traffic to my thread. Maybe I don't spend enough time on other people's threads. I have to give more to receive more.
My BD anniversary is coming up in a couple of weeks, then my wedding the following week.
Still no more mediation meetings in the works, still in limbo.
Do I ever ask him when he plans to take the rest of his belongings out of the house? Or-- if we should begin splitting finances, especially if he is spending joint $$ on dating? Dare I say something like that to him?
I feel like the answer is always, no-- no R talks, just GAL and worry about yourself. Limbo is good.
But this unknown is scary. Maybe I need to make some moves, like get the house appraised.
Am I entitled to access to joint bank accounts or CC accounts? I can't see what he spends-- he controls access to all the accounts and pays the shared CC bill. He has another card on his own, and so do I.
Looks like I need to call Chuck and my L. and I need to get some sleep.
