In limbo, need to figure out next steps (thread #5

[shodan]

I know somewhere deep down she loves me but her heart is closed off due to the A. I take some solace from the fact that her text clearly was not "I want to be with you forever" but more "I need to cool things here, I am super confused."

I just spoke with a mediator. She asked if MC was a possibility. I said not as long as she is in the A.

My W is hurting big time. She is mentioning things from years ago that I did not realize had hurt her. We cannot move forward until she lets go of that hurt and pain, forgives me and tries to work on our M. And I think (i know, mind reading) that the A provides her some comfort while she is hurting. And as long as she thinks our M is over, in her mind, why not continue with the A.

So yeah, I feel pretty hopeless overall. Like I said before, I really feel for my kids. They do NOT deserve this. They deserve two parents working on their M, not running away from it.