I know it seems that way (that she doesn't love you) Sho, but my wife -- just 5 days before we reconciled -- was telling her OM that "no one ever did it for you the way you do," and throwing multiple ILYs at him. Five days later, she cries tearfully to me "You're my HOME!"
She's messed up. I'm not saying to make your decisions based on what we each might GUESS is in her heart, rather than by her actions/decisions . . . clearly, you need to do the latter, and I agree that you're probably at that point. I'm just saying don't totally close off your heart to her, and try to give grace as you move forward. You never know what the future may hold -- 20% of divorced couples re-marry even, with an overwhelming majority of those reporting that their new marriage is better than it ever was before.
