You're a tough bird, Maybell and that can be a good thing.

Why is digging into what's at the root of all this considered navel-gazing? Because maybe you don't yet believe you're worthy of happiness?

I get that you may not be ready yet, we get there when we get there but don't put up false roadblocks.

Good for you for realizing you needed to stay out of the logistics but it seems like using a sledge hammer to kill a fly. I know these holiday things are tough. I whined and p!ssed and moaned and cried my way through that first Thanksgiving. I also felt abandoned by the family but really, what were they supposed to do? We were separated, that was the reality.

Keep pushing forward, watch out for that sledgehammer. smile

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss