BOB.

[daring]

Shining your thread and all the advice here is getting me through some tough days. So thankful for this board!

"I struggle because I feel his pain. I can't explain it. I just have a gut that screams at me. It tells me that he doesn't know why he's doing what he's doing. He isn't happy. He is so confused. That things make so much sense to him one minute and not the next. That he feels like he's going crazy sometimes. That he loves me and hates me all at once."

^^^^ I feel this so much- my H has even told me he's broken and he doesn't know if he'll ever be fixed.

My frustration right now is the effect on my D13 which spins me into some serious anger. Working through that to get back to compassion.

And to add to the songs.... I was blaring Heart " never" in my car this morning.
These lyrics spoke to me-

" hey baby I'm talking to you- stop yourself and listen. Some things you can never choose, even if you try. You're banging your head again, cuz somebody won't let you in. One chance, one love- hold me down or let me go."

Hmmmm- was she dealing with a man in MLC???