according to the 37 rules , I should NOT say " I love you" ? so as hard as it it going to be, i guess I got my answer on that one.
as for the kiss and holding hands, I would assume that falls under pursuing?
and I asking her what she is comfortable with is like seeking affirmation? ** this one strikes me .... because that is all i would need to feel better..... guess that's off limits too.
the acting "as if" is VERY hard for me. it's hard to be "happy" without her. i am trying to work on the "as if"
I feel as if I've pulled back and I'm trying to be patient but nothing has worked ....... ugh
just ranting and typing thoughts. better to do it here .
as for the comment above about typing a text but not sending it..... i actually have done something similar to that. i will open up a WORD document and type everything I want to say as if I was going to send an email. but eventually, i would just read it over a few times and then delete it.
i would NOT do it on a text to her and just delete it because my dumb a$$ would probably somehow accidentally send it. hahaha that's why I won't even do a draft email.
me-42 w-33 d-3 together-6 m-4yr 6/1/14-w check out 6/15/14-EA? 8/1/14-mc 9/1/14-IDLY-started DBing 9/15/14-w suggest separation 10/17/14 wife is done 12/13/2014 - wife move out me file 1/1/15
