In limbo, need to figure out next steps (thread #5

[shodan]

I spoke with one mediator today, have scheduled a meeting with a mediator on Thursday and have another call scheduled tomorrow. I know my W and I can make this amicable except for the house. Neither of us will want to leave it. The one that leaves will seem "less of the parent" even though we will have joint custody.

I have a call with my DB coach on Wednesday and was planning to ask her whether or not I should push for mediation or whether I just need to be patient, GAL and detach. But I am very tempted to text my W now and let her know about my appt and ask whether or not she can be available. I am just do done with the lies, cheating and deceit and frankly am not sure I want this M to work. It is going to take some much work on her part to earn back my trust.

Like Bart, my wife is so stubborn and to some extent hurt by my previous actions that I think she would rather D than admit to the A.