Job and Shining - Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!! I needed that desperately today. I know I am paralyzed by fear - especially early on - so crippling. Getting to the bottom of that is the hard stuff- I am trying. Thank you for reminding me and encouraging me to get the focus off of him. So many things ring true in Eric's post. Shining - my H has really decreased his already minimal conversation with me too. I know I am so early in I can't even imagine r. I also know that I am just beginning my journey and at times I get excited about finding out who I really am and where I have been all these years. I sometimes get jealous over other posters who get the touch n goes because I get nothing but I also don't get the nastiness so that is a fair trade I guess. I try to be pleasant and engage in small talk around the kids so they don't feel such a strain but it is hard when it is 1 sided. I am definitely nowhere near completing my inner work - if we ever truly are. I know it takes a long time as it is proving to be - initially I couldn't even see 7 months out but here I am and I feel like I have just started really implementing tangible changes in myself. I can't even remember what it was like really before the BD. I know it is something that I don't want to return to - we were basically 2 people living under 1 roof but living separate lives - he had been detaching for at least a year. Thanks for giving me some uplifting reading for the day -I hope your day goes well!!!
I sometimes get jealous over other posters who get the touch n goes because I get nothing but I also don't get the nastiness so that is a fair trade I guess. I try to be pleasant and engage in small talk around the kids so they don't feel such a strain but it is hard when it is 1 sided. I am definitely nowhere near completing my inner work - if we ever truly are. I know it takes a long time as it is proving to be - initially I couldn't even see 7 months out but here I am and I feel like I have just started really implementing tangible changes in myself. I can't even remember what it was like really before the BD. I know it is something that I don't want to return to - we were basically 2 people living under 1 roof but living separate lives - he had been detaching for at least a year.