Newcomer living in Hell

[bravo61]

I don't know Card I'm pretty special. In the past 4 months let me review my life:
Drove cross country in two days to be w/my family;
During the drive, realize God has been speaking to m e to be a better person, husband, father;
Make decision to not tell W, gonna show her;
Kiss her sleeping head when I get there and tell her I'm never leaving her side again;
Next day she drops bomb on me;
Start new job where at any time if I fail a test I'm fired;
I know no one here & have no support system;
Start counseling;
Job itself has dangerous aspects (law enforcement);
Make numerous positive life changes(see previous posts);
Told by her I'm a perfect father and amazing person;
But that doesn't matter;
Move out;
Told by her that part of her wants a D(only part-ETC);
Reminded by her that she loves me and sex was great;
Served D papers by off duty deputy I've met.

Legendary!!! And unfortunately all true