1 step forward, 1000 steps back - part 7

[mdu]

Still feeling good. H had the kids last night, when I left the house this morning he was driving past with the kids, we both stopped and rolled our windows down and said a quick hello. I was very cheery. Feeling back in the 'woman you'd be a fool to leave' space. Also feeling very much like I will be ok no matter what. I have been so freaked by the prospect of the holidays without H. But I started thinking about how that gives me the freedom to do and celebrate in whatever way I want. I love creating fabulous experiences for the kids, like D5's Frozen party yesterday. I certainly don't need H to do that!

And I have lots of fun stuff coming up over the next month or so. Going to a concert in the city with a friend, going to an American Girl doll café/store with D5 and another friend and her D, a dear friend from overseas is coming to visit me, and Halloween is somewhere in the middle of everything. Halloween is always a big deal and a blast in our neighborhood. Work is heating up a lot too, which is good for me because I love my job and being busy helps keep my PMA up.

So, for the moment, things continue to be good despite all that's going on with Dad and things with H taking a negative turn. Hopefully I can keep on this upward swing for a while.