Need help

[lostluv]

i'm working on myself....definitely takes time. as anyone in my position i'm a bit impatient. i'm working on that as well.

even on a normal day my mind is running a mile a minute so to speak. it's ok on an engineering standpoint when problem solving in a production setting, but for evaluating relationship status it's a killer.

example... today went' fairly well and my wife and I worked together on sanding and painting the living room (just primer for now). remodeling has been an ongoing thing and it has been stalled for a little while. anyways, I typically do the"heavy" part and my wife does much of the painting. she has been putting a lot of effort into it the past week and I have told her I appreciate it and offer to help whenever I can. anyways, my overactive mind is trying to make me think that she is doing one of two things....1) just trying to get the remodeling done so we can sell the house quicker. OR 2) actually putting in effort to make the house nicer for her to stay ( ha! see what I mean??)

I'm just expressing train of thoughts here, i am NOT letting it get to me and I have told myself to NOT try to read into it. Just take it day by day and work together on finishing the house and either way can be a good thing. it's a way we can work together since we have to make decisions as well (color, style, etc.) baby steps.....

hopefully this makes sense?

it was a long day for my wife as she did a lot of painting. I didi the grocery shopping and some cooking (i prep my lunches for the whole week on sunday) and she cooked up some meals for the week as well. after dinner I told her to get a shower and relax while I took care of all the clean up and letting my daughter finish dinner. (there was a lot to clean up! haha) I just wanted her to be able to enjoy the rest of her evening.

tomorrow is a new day and determined it is another GOOD day