Shining, my friend, your post brought tears to my eyes.
First of all, what a great thing that you taught them to wash their own clothes so early on. Loved that you washed all of your son's.
This must be so hard for you, having them both leaving. I cant imagine it. I believe very few things are coincidences. I think they were meant to share a room at this time in this way.
It's ok to think about your h, S, and to have feelings of anger and sadness. I would be worried if you didnt. As long as you dont stay there, thats the important part.
Life really is amazing and a gift. The good parts and the bad. The easy parts and the hard parts. Each part allows us to feel it all.
