May your eyeliner,

[Ggrass]

Yes, it is better to cut losses. In this case however h is banking on that fact.

He wants me to walk away with nil, which is what he said, everybody walks all over you and takes advantage of you financially . He did in the r and he is now. He wants the stuff to sell for the $, I will be using said items. He gave me a business in which I took all the things that cost $ in other words the liabilities (his words) he kept the assets. That is not a fair split.

He justifies it by saying gg contributed nothing not one cent, not one bit of work to the r.
I contributed plenty, worked 3 jobs and sacrificed plenty on his request.

Both those areas need to be worked on in my life. Standing up for what is mine will be a 180.

Sat I spent the day with a friend who hasn't know me more than 2 years. She commented on some of the visible changes which I cannot feel or see that easily.

She has said my whole outlook is such a huge change even the way i hold my self and my much easier mannerisms.

A customer commented she is surprised, my changes since I started working there at Christmas, seems she doesn't even recognise me from the person who started there 2 years ago. She could not remember me. Which surprised me, I feel the same person.

Back to my sat, my work mate said I hold my self different all the time, my thinkings happier lighter more relaxed, more able to deal with customers and more proactive. Her and I also went shopping, thank god the shoe shop was shut, otherwise we both might have been a couple of pairs heavier on the trip home.

Her biggest statement is how she thinks I'm still searching for answers. Thinking if I turn every stone every issue then I can figure out my lessons. That I need to be digging to sort them. She really pointed out in a great way that I'm doing things without knowing the pieces are actually coming together, I seem to be finding my way by instinct if that makes sense.

Yesterday was my Monday, and work didn't go terribly well, not enough staff, super busy.
The differences I noticed yesterday in me was I spoke up and made my points to the bosses rather than take the blame and when I came home the whole stress of the day did not carry over. I cared that the job wasn't done as good as it could of been but I wasn't as invested emotionally as I would have been in the past.

A bunch of rambling that may or may not make any sense, but this morning it's just those thoughts that are giving me joy. That things do change, even when you think they are not.