Need help. Scared, confused, and hurting.

[Jefe]

"I've found that when my WAW is around and acting civil that in a strange way I feel comforted by her presence. Then I drive home and cry my eyeballs out because of this nightmare we have created."

I'm so sorry for your struggles this week, FD. All I can say is that I relate. I just had my a** handed to me this weekend with non-marital stuff. The enemy is working hard on my family. I will be doing some thoughtful and deliberate prayer time this evening, and you my friend most certainly will be included.

"Sounds like she wants attention from you or someone else. Don't bite. Don't use the intel you have either cause I guarantee she will just justify and blame it on you anyway."

It's the someone else that goads me, but I'll live. No joke on the intel. It will only serve to widen the chasm between us and reset the clock. My tongue is bleeding from biting it.

"Find something else to replace what you normally do on FB. I think so much of this process is just about filling the empty places."

I think you're right. There are just some empty space that can't be filled. Tired of crying, I am. And out of nowhere to, sometimes.

Interestingly,, our series in church that started last Sunday and will go for the next couple is about the Prodigal Son. Today's message hit home, hard. The series just prior , right after we separated, was In The Furnace. God's at work here for sure. Hard to be patient sometimes. I want it in my time, He's going to do it in His.