still holding on - 4

[u-turn]

I had a great time with S17 and D14 last night. I went to the movies/dinner with them and we had some great laughs. It makes me believe that they are ok and resilient. Or I have kept everything normal enough and my PMA in front of them to cover it up.

This morning W asked about our evening, she has been pretty disconnected with me lately, I just said we had a great time.

She apologized for being distant lately.

I said "it was ok, but you want me to open up, but you are keeping me at arms length and if you are not going to talk, all I can do is try to read your mind, which I am not good at". She apologized again and said "nobody's good at that and you over analyze things". She said then, "I'm still here". an indication that she isn't giving up - we've used that phrase before.

Not as much of a conversation that I was hoping for, but I guess I should take what I can get - doesn't mean she's in or out. I try to let go of all of the signals that I "think" I'm getting.

Just more crumbs and more limbo.

On another note, she says she is actively looking at moving to another facility within the same company. This is also promising to me - not that it will end the A (if it is still going on), but it would limit their face time together.