You ARE doing really well, Caliguy! I'm impressed with your restraint and staying true to your promises to yourself. Like AJ said, there's constant back and forth, up and down. Detachment helps keep your close enough to empathize but far enough to not get drawn in. Be mindful and open.
rock on!
Thank you Ss ... yeah the push/pull is becoming very clear to me, strange what you are so alerted to when DBing rather than reacting, everything is so planned and you just seem to have the tools to deal with it better.