"Ok, now you're mind reading. My initial "peek" was to see if she was ok, and to maybe get a clue as to where she was. It had nothing to do with the OM.
Now its ... "The phone call snooping really affected me, and not in a good way."
Just be honest with yourself. You wanted to see where your W was f*cking the OM. It's as simple as that. It's okay. She's your W. Of course you want to try and take back what's yours.
But you are obsessing over it which is preventing you from working on yourself. Haven't seen much of that happening. Again, you never talk about your kids and what you do with them while she's away. Do that instead.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.