Newcomer living in Hell

[bravo61]

so now i get to pay attys for a divorce i don't want for decisions that she made that will hurt her, the kids, and me. this is not right. i've admitted and owned every mistake i've made in the 15 years we've been together but now that i've changed for the better (starting before the drop) that doesn't warrant a time frame for her to at least think about if its real before imploding our family. for freedom that i always encouraged her to have!!! do WAW ever come to their senses or does it become a pride and stubborness deal with them? i moved into an apt across the street from them so i could be there when they need me. it costs me half of my bring home and the parenting plan requires me to pay over 800 a month in child support. that would leave me around 600 dollars to pay for groceries, gym, other bills, gas. and the kicker, she makes DOUBLE what i make. i just feel really beaten down right now. i miss my family and my wife. she still loves me she's just afraid and thinks that a divorce will solve all her problems. the sad thing is, she's smarter than that. she wants to do it all herself and not need anybody. meanwhile, she'll call me to watch the kids so she can run some errands. 1 thing she is doing by herself is imploding a marriage without any thoughts of herself. it will be a wakeup when the D goes through and she looks around and doesn't have me to blame for her unhappiness. and those single friends won't be there when she needs them. they never are as all parents know.