Wonka, you make the cut, but you may not want to anymore...
I got home from my party, took his temperature, got upset, and threw him out.
I can't keep doing this yo-yo thing anymore. If he wants me he knows where I am, but he can't keep drawing close and then back-burnering me.
My husband left me, my parents are unreliable, and I had to fire my IC. It really is just me now. Like, for real, I can't keep lying to myself and pretending like this is salvageable. It's not. I deserve better.
He wants things not to be awkward. He wants it to be nice and convenient so he doesn't have to feel badly about being such a selfish coward. It costs me too much to let him have that. I told him I need to not be around him anymore and not pretend like he's my friend because I can't heal from the horrible way he's treated me when he acts like he did last week.
I realize I'm the worst DBer on the boards. Other people can smile and chat through their depths. I'm sure I'd be better off if I could too, but the fact is, I just can't. I need my space. I need to heal. I need to get in a place where I don't have to think about him. I can not do this.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
