Maybell XIV

[Maybell]

While I was stomping around being miserable I realized what an old question this is for me.

I do poorly at home by myself and I hate the pointlessness of getting out just for the purpose being out.

I need a role in life that is JUST MINE and I've been using not being able to find a job as an excuse for not seeking out my purpose. I've got to find my vocation and get to work on it.

I have one that I had been hanging on to since childhood, but I've never really pursued it properly. I made a lot of excuses for that. I can do that now while I'm seeking something outside the house too, if I just organize my time appropriately. This one thing that isn't working for me is just an excuse for keeping other things from coming together. Time to change that.