In limbo, need to figure out next steps (thread #5

[shodan]

Thanks ahoy. When I start to feel down, I just remind myself that she is in God's hands now. I cannot control her, her feelings and her decisions. Where I struggle from time to time is detaching. We live together, we have kids together, etc. Further, she is showing signs and taking action to be in NYC less and less (NYC is where the OM is). Right now, she won't be there again for another two weeks, which would put her almost three weeks between trips. Not exactly the recipe for a hot A.

Last night we somehow started talking. I came back from a work event and then while in bed, she asked how it was. One thing led to another and she mentioned that her best friend has been telling her that my W is the worst communicator. Her friend has been telling her that her lack of communication is one of the main reasons behind our situation right now. My W never told me how she felt and expected me to read her mind. I joked and said that mind reading is a super power that I have not developed yet.

I just need to be patient and focus on me. If I had to guess, my W does want to work on the M but is very unsure of me and my changes. I of course cannot show her Plan A Shodan but need to continue to be nice, kind, confident, strong ad non-controlling in my behaviors.