Maybell XIV

[Maybell]

I've been living. I've been doing. I've been planning. I've been looking for a job, cultivating friendships, caring for my children, managing my problems, pursuing my interests, finding new ones.

I want more. I want someone to snuggle. I want someone to kiss. I want someone to watch a scary movie with or to snuggle up to when I wake up from a nightmare after a scary book. I want to hear about someone else's day than my own. I want someone to cook grown up food for. I want to be able to say I love you or invite someone into the shower with me. I'm tired of living alone and of facing a future of being alone. I LIKED being married. I liked having a vault to pour my secrets into.

I don't want to live like this any more.