I've been GALing like crazy. It's just this "getting out and doing things" business isn't enough for me. I have great friends and I love them, but there is only so close you can get with good friends and I want a little more. I don't know if it's the timeline that's getting me down... I had three great talks with my H last week and they made me comfortable with waiting. If I could have SOME personal communication with him it was easy to be patient. Now he's busy at work, I have only barely heard from him, and I can really feel what I've been missing. I don't want that to be the rest of my life, that he is only present when other things permit. I want to be cared about enough to not be back-burnered at every opportunity. I want someone who really, really loves me and who feels as refreshed by time with me as I feel by time with him.
Maybe I should face the possibility that that's not my husband?? I don't know. I don't want to, I chose him on purpose. But I didn't have to fight for his attention when I chose him, either.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
