Stresses of moving out seem to be looming. WAW as home listed and appears to be overly stressed about how clean it is. She wants some time in the home this weekend to do cleaning. I mentioned to her that I will give her a few boxes to pack up S3 .5 things. I'm feeling the overwhelming need to make sure I am compassionate, caring, and affirming. I am not sure why she is so stressed over this other than having it listed and constant distractions if people want to come see the home. I moved out in seven days and have made very big efforts to get packed and out of her way. For some reason I feel the need to touch her, give her hugs, And the occasional kiss on the cheek. I tend to be over doing this at times and I catch myself, but then think I'm leaving soon what does it matter? I'm having a very hard time staying detached at this point because I know I will not sleep in her bed, see her face daily, touch your skin, or be able to just say nice things when she seems stressed. I have to keep on "A mask of false bravado trying to keep up the smile to hide the tears" Walking away is going to be hard what kind of things can I say to her as I leave that would not be pursuit but would let her know that my door is open? Do I simply leave a thank you card for breaking my heart yet not saying that? Do I have something in mind to say to her the last time I walk out of that home? I have all those questions that seem to be building up is there any one that can help?
Me43/WAW43..M 4y..S1 11/S2 4..Bomb2/2014..Dfile 5/2014..Settlement signed 8/20/14..D final 8/29/14 I moved out 10/10/14..WAW got D she wanted. I wanted R. No waiting,just no boundaries in her way.
