on chapter 7 of divorce busting. I definitely need to do more 180's but I have a hard time because it makes me feel so cold. it terrifies me to think about it because i feel like if I just turn to my self and not worry about her, she will just be relieved and go away. I know it sounds crazy, and I need to take the leap of faith, but it's hard!
if it comes down to an actual full blown separation, I feel that since SHE is the one that will be the one who truly wants it, then SHE should be the one to find an alternate place to stay.
my friend that I originally was trying to make plans with to stay with for a while seems hesitant because he and his fiance just moved in together and are planning their wedding and it may cause issues with them. his fiance does have her condo that she is putting on the market, but they are hesitant to let me crash there if they are going to have it for sale because they need to be able to show it at any time and prefer it to be empty.

tonight is our "date night" and it SHOULD be a good time. alcohol and a comedy club? c'mon.....how can that not be a fun time?!?

I did leave a small not on the steering wheel of the wife's car that simply says "hope you have a good day. i'm looking forward to having a fun time with you tonight"
I typically do not write notes......

we have the daughter's gymnastics class sat morning and then a family open house at my workplace. I think i may suggest to the wife that she goes out with her friends sat night while I watch the daughter. or should I just tell her that I have made plans for later sat night? either way is not typical for me since we would both normally stay home and watch tv .

me-42
w-33
d-3
together-6
m-4yr
6/1/14-w check out
6/15/14-EA?
8/1/14-mc
9/1/14-IDLY-started DBing
9/15/14-w suggest separation
10/17/14 wife is done
12/13/2014 - wife move out
me file 1/1/15