Raliced, Thanks for the reply. Being in limbo sucked. Interacting daily did provide opportunities to show off 180s, but it was impossible to detach enough to be healthy. I rolled from calm to anxious almost daily. I have control issues. I did not have enough self discipline to let go of the control. Until I can stop being controlling I cannot have a healthy relationship with anyone, including by boys. Even if my M fails I am "excited" to defeat my "control deamons.". I will become a better person. I hope my W is the one that gets to benefit from it.
M42 W40 T17 M15 S13 S11 BD 7-14 A discovered 7-14 WAW moved out 10-3-14 D final 2-23-15
