Today is the greatest

[BklynMom]

Just got this email from exH. Its so banal and boring yet it irks me so much.

""just thinking about the holidays....

halloween is on my weekend. would you prefer spending halloween night with them and i pick them up saturday?

last year the girls were with me for thanksgiving? whatever you wanna do this year. ( i don't have plans yet with my family)

my family is gathering in lowell on dec13 (which falls on one of my weekends)

and last year the girls were with you xmas eve and morning. so, that switches this year. i could pick them up either friday night the 19th or sat the 20th and bring them to you xmas day. that way they with each of us half the xmas break. i am planning on visiting jess' family after that.

please let me know what you think""

I wonder what I am doing wrong that I still hate him so much and each stupid email from him makes me emotional.

I see people on these boards who have recovered and let go. Why do I still dream and hold on? Why does it hurt? It still believe somewhere inside that I did something wrong to deserve this... my divorced life. I don't like "sharing" Christmas.

Thanks for being here everyone. I know how lucky I am to have found you guys and how lucky I am to have my girls 90% of the time.

Really, I am well. I just want to get to the point where his email don't even phase me