I wanted desperately to talk about all this with H but it could be seen as temperature taking because it's more about "what will happen in the future" and I vowed not to do that anymore.
It's interesting how I want to lean heavily on him instead of empowering myself to make a decision in my own best interest. Fascinating. Wonder why that is.
Anyway, hopefully I'm in the early stages of another up swing. I know I have no more tears left so up is the only way right now.
Awesome that you identified discussing this with WAH as "temp checking", among other things. That, by itself, is huge progress! You are killing it. Down swings like you had earlier this week are totally natural, so don't think it was a sign that you backslid or are doing something wrong.
Also, facing this on your own is a huge 180. Great idea not to automatically rely on him. Not to mention it would violate one of Sandi's rules (don't make your convos with WAS about yourself).
Checkout fiverr.com. It's an interesting site. People sell their talents for $5. There are some people on there that will review resumes or cover letters for $5. Might be good to get some fresh perspective since you've been at it for a while now.
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
