Feeling stronger than ever

[mleigh4]

I am feeling really good today guys! H is off for his weekend trip away. He came in early this morning while I was just waking up in bed to say goodbye. No hug or anything, but the effort was nice, wasn't expecting it.

This is the first time he has been away for more than a day since B day. I actually am happy for him, I think he needs this and deserves this. And the crazy thing? I am not feeling any bad feelings. I have little waves of anxiety here or there, but they go away pretty quickly. I feel good. Lake Tahoe has a lot of special meaning to us. I know I know, this means nothing to a MLCer. I do understand that. However, we officialy got together there, got married there and also went every year for family vacations. Maybe this will be good for him but I have no expectations.

More importantly, I am looking forward to hanging out with S this weekend having the whole house to ourselves! I have a movie to watch, a great book to read, going to the pumpkin patch and maybe a local Faire too! A good mix of relaxing and fun.

Yay for me!