I've been here for about two months and it looks like it is time for a new thread. Like many newbies, my first thread title was a cry of pain, so I am adjusting it. I briefly toyed with the idea of naming it "Dude, Where's my H?", but decided that might lack the necessary gravitas for this situation.
Right after the BD, my personal rollercoaster seemed to be the "up" of feeling feisty and the "down" of feeling overwhelmed. Lately I notice a shift in my feelings- I still feel feisty, but at low moments I feel more sadness and even some anger. I think this is because, at first all my anguish was centered around my family breaking up, and now, by inches, I am slowly starting to process my feelings as a betrayed wife. Good Times!
Next week is my anniversary. When I'm feeling disappointed (or even disgusted) by his recent actions, I do look back to that day and remember how fortunate I was to have found such a sweet, loving and decent man. I know that man still exists, although he is very lost right now. Have we crossed the Rubicon? I have no idea, but I'm not giving up and will do everything I can to salvage the situation by improving myself.
And on that note...
Good news to report - I wiggled into a size smaller dress today and I must say I looked good in it (it's one of those scuba type dresses with the flared skirt that really shows off the legs). As of this morning, have finally lost all the baby weight . Physically, I'm looking good - I cut my hair and am rocking a pageboy bob that I wore when I first met H, whitened my teeth, am regularly getting manicures again (can't quite budget for the pedicures yet), pierced my ears (my old holes grew shut years ago),and after reading all the exchanges on this board, I decided to finally start wearing perfume (at least when H is around). I'm also physically feeling much better due to improved sleep (thanks fellow posters for all the great suggestions), nutritious diet and consistent exercise.
Here's hoping this thread will have a few positive developments. I think I will leave this on a good note.
. Physically, I'm looking good - I cut my hair and am rocking a pageboy bob that I wore when I first met H, whitened my teeth, am regularly getting manicures again (can't quite budget for the pedicures yet), pierced my ears (my old holes grew shut years ago),and after reading all the exchanges on this board, I decided to finally start wearing perfume (at least when H is around). I'm also physically feeling much better due to improved sleep (thanks fellow posters for all the great suggestions), nutritious diet and consistent exercise.
