If you love something let it go. Love it enough to find what it is looking for. Also love yourself enough to find YOU.
From where I sit, you will continue with the current cycle – until one of two things happen.
1) You finally realize what is happening to you and decide for YOURSELF that this is not the life you want for YOU. Or
2) You continue on in the current cycle, until one day…you realize that he is may never change.
Einstein definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. I’m sure you are going to tell me that you have changed and yes you have changed some things about yourself. I feel though the changes were never for YOU – they were done as a tactic to get HIM back. When you finally come to accept and love YOURSELF (faults and all), you will come to realize that YOU matter, you will see this cycle, this game that he plays.
Now I bet you…..the business deal will not happen for say….another year, then it will be another excuse.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans