1 step forward, 1000 steps back - part 7

[mdu]

Wonka, I hear you but H broke it off with OW SEVEN months ago. And while I get that her being in the office likely kicked a lot back up again so it's not really seven months I'm frankly just getting sick of the whole thing.

And no, I did NOT react well to H saying he still has feelings for OW. Honestly, I feel like I'm expected to be inhuman. Between this and what's happening with my Dad it's all too much.

Having said all that, I am still hanging in there and H appears to be too. Although once again he has pulled back because of my 'bad' behavior. I'll admit, I'm rolling my eyes a bit. It seems he can do whatever he wants and I need to find compassion, accept and forgive but yet he can't find it in himself to extend the same to me. It's not just the A I have working to forgive him for btw, it's so much more. He has abandoned me more times than I can count at this point, especially now with my father so ill.

Yesterday was actually our anniversary. And despite my obvious bitterness in this post I was able to put it aside for a few hours. We had a nice lunch together, chatting and generally seemed to enjoy each others company. We also started marriage counseling. That's a whole nother post! I think we're giving it our best shot but I'm still very uncertain where we will land. There's obviously a lot to get through.